[-- sober on a thursday the first thursday i haven't spent out drinking/dancing in a while.. nothing came up till way later and i guess i was dead tired from studying and midtermage.. but here i am blogging prolly about things too deep for a fleeting thought on a party night.. at this time, i'd usually be passed out or pigging out on Mcdonalds after a drunken endeavor.. but i just spent the last hour or so talking to dean, one of my good friends from high school, who's stationed out in iraq.. part of a ranger battalion.. talking to him makes me think.. it makes me think that people here including myself take everything we have for granted so easily i was confronted a month ago with a life-changing issue (the whole scare i mentioned) and it shook me so bad i'm still recovering.. but being in his position, he faces that fear multiplied every day and much closer than i ever will which leads me to my next topic.. me. no, not the usual 'i'm sexy and so cool' and so forth cuz you already know all that XD (Akio-moment of the night) i'm changing.. things are changing for me.. i don't know if people have read this blog that far back but i reached a point here at school that i really stopped caring about my social life.. i was so caught up in myself, living in some kind of made-up fantasy world, i spent so much time thinking of the life i should have that i stopped living life.. a loser, if you will.. never tried to contact people, never willing to go out, i even blogged a month or so ago about not being able to go out and be enthusiastic about meeting new people and talking to guys (the whole "what is love" entry).. somehow in the span of a week, that's changed.. my friends have become my lifeline.. i've actually started talking on AIM every day with people i haven't chatted with since sophomore year, making plans to chill with people i've never chilled with before and hoping to get a new opportunity to get out, see boston, and meet people.. i guess it's a bit late now, considering its my last semester here but like i told ghost last night, i'm starting to see boston as i did back when i was a freshman, a place of opportunity, new experiences and new people.. i've already said this many times but i'm atheist.. i don't believe in god or heaven or hell or the afterlife or some kind of sublime destination at the end of our lives.. i value life so much, i keep saying and thinking that we only have one to live and that we should live it yet i stayed in this room and the other room last year boarded up, barely living it like i said i should.. my college career is coming to an end.. and while i'm scared, while i fear failure and while i'll look back and think that i may have wasted a couple of years doing nothing, i can't help but see toward the future, a new life waiting for me.. i love change. as a big contrast to other people i know, i love different places, people and i get bored.. tho i like having something to go home to (my yakuza, high school friends and family, they all know how much i love them).. i've come to realize i've only tasted a sliver of life, so small that it may as well be nothing.. i turned 22 in january. i keep thinking that i'm getting old when i think about it now, i could be in my 40s and still young, i can still accomplish so much at that age that it makes me realize how much more i can get done now, when i'm still energetic enough to do the things i want.. i wanna be someone. i wanna make a difference. i think for some reason, i'm now ready to live. Listen. // // He satisfied me Friday, February 24, 2006 @ 02:03 a.m. [-- well, here i am.. and here's another exciting addition to akio's blog of doom.. i feel like doing a survey but there are none that anyone's posted =( anyway, here's a list of things i've done since my last blog: - Tuesday: went to T's pub with frank.. some minor drinking and some MAJOR singing.. karaoke night is always fun there, just busting out into random Bon Jovi songs.. tho the night is not complete without singing "Total Eclipse of the Heart" Old School style teehee.. fun tymz - Thursday: was supposed to go to Tonic with ria and frank to party it up since Scott was DJing and no cover.. but the line was fackin' long and by the time we got in, it would be closing =P we ended up going to Wonderbar and dancing the night away.. good times tho the music got slow and shitty towards the end and they closed to night with "Sweet Home Alabama" and "I Love Rock And Roll".. just another sign that there are just entirely too many white people at that bar.. and sketchy guys.. thank god Frank is the best cock-block ever.. saves me a lot of hastle - Friday through Saturday night: BosMUN conference.. so it finally happened.. spent those two days running around is the FREEZING WEATHER, gah, i thought i was gonna get sick AGAIN.. but it was great being involved in something again, it made me miss being FSA e-board.. putting on a large event is something to really be proud of.. i really regret not being treasurer this year tho I guess in a way, it's best.. senioritis is hitting me bad anyway =T then we hung out at Dan's place Saturday night.. - Sunday, i spent sleeping to not get sick - Monday, skipped class from tiredness. - Tuesday, went to class and slept all day after =P good way to spend valentine's day, eh? - Today, class and more napping.. i heart sleep that's about it, not too exciting but this weekend should be awesome since govan's coming up to boston for the weekend.. and i'm supposed to go to Tonic tomorrow with ria and Frank.. this time, hopefully we'll get in and see Scott DJ.. that'd be the super-fun tymz.. i'm surprised at how i'm not getting sore after these long dancing nights.. i usually wake up the next day in SERIOUS pain.. i guess cuz the grinding up on guys is much less.. =P can't help it if the prospects are so few =T i'd just like to add a few words about what i think about valentine's day.. i probably read about 20 away messages on Tuesday saying something to the effect "Valentine's day sucks because i'm single".. i immediately wanted to look for the world's smallest violin.. WAH WAH WAH, no one cares. so ur single on valentine's day, big deal. I've been single all my damn life and one day out of the entire year that couples act more mushy than usual, you hafta sit there feeling more sorry for yourself? please, cry me a fuckin river cause it's a complaint i'm sick of hearing about.. i don't go bitching to all my friends that i'm single.. yes, i'd like not to be but it doesn't mean i can't live my life for my own purposes.. i even realized that the whole reason why i'm single is because i choose to be.. if i wanted to, i could ask some random dude i know to go out with me, it wouldn't be an issue.. however, considering that i'm way too superficial and want a really fuckin hot guy that i could sink my teeth into and haven't found any that aren't either taken or dumb as dirt, it's not happening.. big deal.. it doesn't stop me from having fun with my friends and having the time of my life.. *phew* i feel much better now.. i'm done.. i hafta finish cleaning this sickenly unclean room.. btw, i started writing a fic.. SanjiXZoro X____x;; in that order yes.. and... i'm a dork hahaha leave me love, darlings. Listen. Miseducation of Lauryn Hill // // He satisfied me Wednesday, February 15, 2006 @ 11:10 p.m. [-- i'm sorry.. i just had to blog because my mind is so in the gutter right now that i can't even concentrate on anything.. first, i would just like to say to everyone how much yaoi makes me REALLY horny.. i'm sorry, that may be too much info for ya'll but watching hot guys make out / fuck is just extremely sexually alluring and i've been looking at it all day, specifically between zoro and sanji.. yes, i've said before how hentai is one of my guilty pleasures.. let's say that yaoi is just extension of that.. *sigh* why can't i have my own brothel of hot men to do as i please? well, off topic but still extremely hot is my new desktop background drawn by Vejitta4eva.. i've become obsessed with this yaoi fanart posting site, y!hosting.. anyway, this picture was drawn by her and it literally took my breath away.. her interpretation of the One Piece characters are simply beautiful and her animation is FLAWLESS.. i can't stop staring at it. I'm entraced by the detail and her imaginative approach to their outfits, poses and the particular tone of their facial expressions which completely suit their overall character.. i LOVE that picture.. it'll stay on my desktop probably for a long long time.. in addition, (WARNING: THIS LINK CONTAINS YAOI AKA TWO MEN HAVING SEXUAL ENCOUNTERS.. DO NOT click if you're a homophobe.. u may have nightmares) this picture .. is plaguing my every thought. i personally love the look of sheer ecstasy on zoro's face and sanji's body language almost screams that he's taking zoro as his victim.. LOVE IT (especially since I, much to others' disagreement, think they'd switch uke /seme roles.. most assume sanji as the uke, makes sense since zoro's bigger and buffer.. sanji's more feminine.. i think, however, their sexual attitudes can allow for some changing of dominance) tho that liquidy substance on their bodies seems to be a bit much, we can only assume what that is =P and i'm done blogging way too much about fictional hot male characters having sex as if they really existed.. *sigh* i love yaoi. it makes me happy. Listen. // // He satisfied me Monday, February 6, 2006 @ 03:58 a.m. [-- stolen survey number... i've lost count.. these things are just too damned addicting and they tend be conveniently available just when i should be doing other things.. right now, i don't have anything else to do.. but... yah. whatever, survey. a - accent: i don't think I have an accent? according to all foreigners, i have an American accent.. b - breakfast item: bacon, egg and rice.. but that's only when i DO have time to make food in the morning.. otherwise, it's a piece of bread or crappy microwavable oatmeal just so i have something in my stomach and i can take my vitamins without feeling nauseous.. most of the time it's not even that much and my breakfast consists of a cigarette and coffee which govan and i have dubbed as "the hooker breakfast".. efficient and cuts calories c - chore you hate: doing laundry.. i LOATHE doing laundry but clean clothes are always a plus.. d - dad's name: Augusto Cesar.. how awesome is that? why did i get stuck with crappy-name-number-10 for the rest of my life? damn my parents for making up my name just as i came out and praise god for friends who make up nicknames e - essential everyday item: wallet with ID and keys.. has my money, my cards, my house keys and my BUID which is the only way i can get into my building.. everything else is expendable f - flavor ice cream: chocolate and vanilla swirl.. i love the combo.. g - gold or silver?: white gold? i'm allergic to silver h - hometown: Edison NJ.. now officially indian town i - insomnia: not really.. not as bad as other people have it.. my cousin doesn't sleep for days.. my idea of insomnia is not falling asleep the second my head hits the pillow.. god, i am so jealous of those who can do that.. j - job title: student.. and soon by unemployed k - kids: i've concluded i want a lot of kids.. i want so many mini-me's running around that their babysitter develops ADD trying to keep track of them.. i shall leave my legacy behind in my offspring and the coolness shall spread exponentially.. then.. the the Akio coolness will take over the world. THE END. l - living arrangements: in a little cushy apartment style dorm.. own room, share a bathroom, tiny kitchen, one apartment-mate.. security sucks but otherwise it suits my needs.. m - mom's birthplace: somewhere in the Philippines.. n - number of lovers you've had: nada.. this result will change after i somehow manage to forget being superficial and actually fall in love.. o - overnight hospital stays: none.. i hate hospitals.. i think my mom's loathing for working as a nurse during my incubation in her stomach permeated my brain.. q - queer: as of right now, i don't really find women sexually attractive.. however, i won't X it out of my book since i may discover down the road that the reason why i've not had a boyfriend ever was really because i was rooting for the other team.. i'd be thoroughly surprised considering how much i love men.. especially considering that i'd rather watch two men screw than a man and a woman.. YAY FOR YAOI! r - religious affiliation: eh.. skeptic? i've got my doubts.. people would say atheist.. i don't believe in all that despite being raised catholic.. but if Jesus just happened to show up at my door and cure the world of all diseases with a flick of his finger, shit, i'd believe.. s - siblings: one, my brodda.. he's a fun-loving, puppy-needing, weight-fluctuating, electronic-loving, housemaid of a brother.. and when he's fat, he looks like a snowman.. i heart that boy despite how much he tries to make fun of me.. t - time you wake up: 9AM at the latest since i have 10AM classes.. i'm so not a morning person u - unnatural hair colors you've had: red and brown v - vegetable you refuse to eat: ocra.. it's really slimy and the consistency is just makes me feel sick.. i don't like peas either but if they're in empanadas, i'll eat them w - worst habit: rubbing my eyes or touching my face.. considering how many germs accumulate on my hands, i really should NOT be doing that x - x-rays you've had: teeth? that's about it, i believe y - yummy: pizza, any kind.. LOVE IT. it is my only constant crave z - zodiac sign: Capricorn.. and i found out a few months ago my Chinese sign isn't rat.. i'm actually a Boar / Pig.. i don't know if i should feel better about that or not.. go to ghost's xanga and check out the horoscope she got from niiku-chan.. makes a lot of sense.. so.. let's do this blogging thing.. last week had to have been just about the worst week of my life.. in addition to getting sick just after I went out tuesday, things REALLY blew up on Thursday afternoon.. i handed in my crappily written memo that i spent all night doing and therefore getting more sick from.. then as i was sitting in class, i kept getting call after from my mom.. that stupid beeping from receiving voicemails was really getting to me so i call her after i get out of IS, my last class and she tells me to call my doctor about my blood test results.. so i'm standing at the T-stop and i'm on hold waiting for my doctor who was with a patient when i reach into my bag for my gloves since it was freezing, i was sick and had barely slept.. then CRASH! my cellphone is now split into pieces on the sidewalk.. the T comes just as i pick it up and i head back to my apartment THOROUGHLY pissed.. so i get there, call my doctor from my roommate's phone to receive the worst news of my life.. i'm not of liberty to say what it is.. most people that i have talked to already know what it was about but i don't plan to publicly announce it to everyone.. i'd also suggest to those who know not to tell everyone what had happened.. as a favor to keep these kinds of things personal.. SO, i'm in tears from this bad news and freaking out royally .. in addition the the mind-shattering news, my lack of sleep and being sick, i HAD to catch the T to the nearest Verizon store just to get another phone.. i was there for 2 HOURS i sat there for maybe half an hour before getting someone to talk to me about my problem.. then after choosing the crappiest and cheapest phone in the store since I just need A PHONE, i waited another hour and a half before getting a person to SELL the phone to me.. AND in addition, i had to pay retail price.. 180 bucks for the phone.. i wanted to die.. luckily i was able to transfer my numbers or else i woulda REALLY been fucked. i headed home and ended up talking to my mom for hours about the bad news and somehow studying for my japanese test the next day.. i had planned to go to new york for lainie's birthday and hang out with the seniors from last year but that plan was screwed so i ended up just going home and spent the next 5 days with my parents and as many people as i could see.. i saw ghost on sunday and we talked forever in a starbucks randomly.. then monday i went to lunch with ghost and diane before meeting up with tai and toki at the mall and then watching a movie with ghost.. Match Point was good.. not necessarily movie theater amazing but it's worth renting when it comes out.. Tuesday was the trip to the doctor to get tests done.. after talking to my doctor, he seemed very positive that the results i had received earlier that week were not a reflection of my true health.. and the blood test i took later that day resulted in exactly what he had said.. that basically, nothing was wrong with me and the fucking insurance company blood test was TOTALLY INACCURATE.. so.. later tuesday, i went with govan to a diner where we talked and had a late dinner.. then i spent the rest of the night packing up my stuff to catch a bus on wednesday to get back to boston around 7PM.. went to Adam's goodbye dinner with frank and hung out with the german's for a bit before passing out from pure exhaustion and cold medicine.. thursday, i had class like normal which wasn't too brutal.. that night tho, was the 100-days till graduation event.. it was basically at this big club in downtown boston.. when we got there, the line was uber long.. they weren't letting anyone else in.. so we ended up going to alley cat where it took me literally half an hour to get our drinks.. then we snuck into the Big Easy (which is the club the event was at) and stayed there till around 2 dancing with classmates and other seniors.. kinda funny since i got there and saw Flo, Marty's former roommate, a tall-ass german guy prolly around 6'5"ish.. there was some REALLY short asian girl dancing with him and then this completely unattractive blond girl in a vest starts grinding up behind him.. i still find it really amusing that the tallest most manly-looking guy ever had to be saved by me from a 4-foot asian girl and some really sketchy other girl.. so i kinda just butted in and started dancing with him.. hilarious.. he was helpless.. poor flo.. anyway, the night wore on and was full of dancing, sweating and overall good times.. saw some people i haven't seen in a VERY long time.. and it's amazing how people can get into those awkward situations where they're grinding up on each other the whole night and just come to class the next day being like "hey, so what's up?" the human race is highly amusing in that respect.. i spent today attempting to recooperate from last week of hell and the partying from other night.. i am thoroughly surprised by body isn't completely sore from dancing all night as usually happens.. but.. i'm gonna end this here.. and attempt to make myself some food.. i'm STILL hungry despite eating all day.. this is what happens when i can't smoke -___-;; god, i hate being sick.. leave me love. Listen. // // He satisfied me Friday, February 3, 2006 @ 11:22 p.m. [-- survey here we go. 1. The Jerry Lee Phantom – Route 69 in my pants can't go wrong with 69 in my pants 2. Phantom Of the Opera – All I Ask Of You in my pants 3. Beethoven - I Poco sostenuto-vivace in my pants 4. Lauryn Hill – I used to love him in my pants now who did i love in my pants? 5. The Byrds – Turn! Turn! Turn! In my pants LOL i think this one just sounds silly 6. Shin Hwa – Fly High in my pants 7. Samurai Champloo Soundtrack – Nightshift in my pants 8. Mariah Carey – All I’ve every wanted in my pants 9. Faith Hill – There you’ll be in my pants 10. Bon Jovi – Living on a prayer in my pants 11. Luna Sea – No Pain in my pants *phew* thank god for that. 12. Samurai Champloo Sountrack – in position in my pants 13. Mariah Carey – Against All Odds (Take a look at me now) in my pants sounds aggressive.. 14. Boyz II Men – On Bended Knee in my pants 15. Green Day – Chump in my pants 16. Paul Van Dyk – That’s life in my pants so that's where life is from.. 17. Marilyn Manson – Sweet Dreams in my pants bet your ass, yah.. no pun intended 18. N’Sync- Bringin’ Da Noise in my pants not too sure noises that would be.. -____-;; 19. H.O.T. – Outside Castle in my pants 20. Luna Sea – Recall in my pants 21. H.O.T. – Korean Pride in my pants this is my favorite cuz it makes absolutely no sense 22. Gorillaz – Tomorrow Comes Today in my pants 23. Moulin Rouge Soundtrack – Come what may in my pants 24. Dir en Grey – [KR] Cube in my pants 25. Mariah Carey – Forever in my pants a lot of those had the word "come" or something to that effect in it.. gee, my itunes must be a perv.. =P toki, i sent you my address.. send me yours so i can send your DVD.. shanks. i'm sick and it sucks. time to do work. Listen. // // He satisfied me Thursday, January 26, 2006 @ 12:03 a.m. [-- i loooovvveee to blog when i'm really drunk.. as in now.. god, i can't type.. toki, i heart you. you are my favorite-est person ever.. cuz.. ur awesome tai-king.. you are the shiznit.. as i have said many times before, you are a fuckin genius to everyone who reads this blog, i am really fucking drunk but thanks for reading cuz my life is totally not interesting yet you still manage to read my blogs.. i heart thou. love, peace and chicken mcfuckin nuggets to everyone. HAHAHA.. adios. Listen. // // He satisfied me Wednesday, January 25, 2006 @ 02:13 a.m. [-- additionally.. i have one request for jun if she reads this before or during her stay in japan.. a cute microwavable obento box ^^ i'd a like a simple but modern-looking one of that's even physically possible O.o;; and possibly a set if it's not too expensive there ^^ watching One Piece and Sanji's sparklingly beautiful dishes, i'd like to start working on food presentation in addition to general cooking.. bento seems to be a good place to start.. atleast that way i can have make an art out of preparing my lunch for the next day hehe p.s. i got my brother to get me the 4th squad bleach bag that toki has off ebay.. i'll pay him back for it but i refuse to go anywhere near paypal and or ebay.. god, can't wait to get it XD Listen. // // He satisfied me Tuesday, January 24, 2006 @ 01:35 a.m. [-- feeling very very lazy. i haven't gone to the gym in over 2 months.. and i feel really gross. but i just can't seem to get over there.. i even signed up for a step and kick class semester but decided to drop it since it's pass / fail.. and my attitude toward the very first class was "i don't feel like going".. if that's the case right now, 3 months from now shouldn't be much different and i'd definitely end up skipping too many classes and failing =P i have to go to the gym today tho.. someone yell at me profusely or threaten to take away my cigarettes or something.. in other news, i've finally been to the west coast and i'll admit the weather is damned nice over there.. right around this time is was sunny but just cool enough to wear a light jacket.. my parentals, my aunt and uncle, three of my cousins and one of their families came.. we totaled 11? anyway, we got to san diego on monday night and me and my cousin EJ drove to the Jack in the Box down the street for some midnight snacking.. gooooddd fries, i tell you. then the next day we went to Seaport Village then to the Cabrillo Monument to take pics of the great view of san diego, naval base and the horizon on the pacific ocean.. then we went to a filipino fast food restaurant that also sells chinese food called Chow King.. tai-king, if you're wondering where that nickname came from it's because i keep thinking "Chow-King" and since "King" is in your SN and tai-king reminds me of "viking" (tho no relation to you, in particular) it just seemed to make sense at the time.. much like "wango that chango".. sorry, off topic.. the next day we went to visit my uncle's friend and he took us out to lunch at a chinese food restaurant.. MY GOD WE ATE SO MUCH.. we had dimsum and then he ordered like 12 different courses.. after we were all done eating, we looked at the table and it looked like they had just set the food down on the table.. afterwards, feeling stuffed as hell, we went to LA and to Hollywood since my 10-year-old niece that talks way too much wanted to see some "stars".. apparently she loves Hillary Duff -___-;; oh well.. got there, went to that chinese theater and took pictures putting our hands in stars' imprints.. i took a picture of John Woo's.. awesome director. thennn off to Starbucks (woopdeedoo) and then to Rodeo Dr where apparently all the superstars shop.. it was horrifyingly expensive there and i longed for the outlet malls of home.. poor sophie (Duff worshipper niece) wanted to buy something from Rodeo Drive since she heard that it was the cool thing to do.. my cousin gave her 20 bucks which didn't get her anything.. she was upset for the rest of the night.. then off to a sushi restaurant (i can't believe i actually ate after that monstrosity of a lunch) and then back to the hotel.. thursday, we went to legoland =P i personally heart legos.. they are the SHIT.. so i wanted to check it out.. the place was fun and there was one good ride for adults and of course the lego sculptures and general idea of the place were cool.. however, the entire parked stank of piss and sewer water.. and i had to keep running to dark abandoned places to sneak a cigarette without my little niece seeing.. generally a fun day but REALLY tiring.. that night, we went to Jollibee which is a fastfood chain based in the Philippines (yah we were all about eating fast food this trip.. you'll see later on too) the burgers were just as i remembered eating them almost 8 years ago.. and the chicken was REALLY good @__@ my mouth waters just thinking of it.. friday, we went shopping =D =D =D off to the outlet mall right outside the mexican border and let me tell you, literally, you could see the huge wall/fence type thingy.. was interesting but at the same time.. no, it was just interesting.. so here's my little list of glorious gifts of doom: coach wallet, coach make-up pouch, two shirts from casual corner and a REALLY cute jacket from Guess ^___^ my parents LOVE to spoil me.. and also it was my birthday / christmas stuff too.. anyway the coach stuff was REALLY cheap there.. good times.. i should have gone to bebe and checked if they had an Arden B. =P friday night, me and EJ thought about going out but truthfully, i was really tired and had a really early flight the next day.. we arrived in the afternoon on saturday and ate chili at uncle marlon's place.. yum =D then off to visit grandma and then home in a bad blizzard and obscenely strong winds.. my dad wanted a break so i ended up driving most of the way home.. the snow was piling up way high and the wind was knocking cars out of their lanes.. it was a challenge but i didn't mind.. and to make things easier i had the GPS telling me where to go.. good times.. sunday, my mom scared the crap out of me and told me i had diabetes after she took my blood sugar.. turns out that i don't and that it's a little high but i freaked out all crying and shit.. jeez, mom.. i spent the rest of the day packing.. around 6-ish, i went to dinner at Olive Garden with my brother, janne, jaymee, my parentals and ghost and yusuke since ghost invited me to her birthday dinner with her family.. we had a lot of fun talking about random things and all.. ghost and yusuke bought me a lot of gifts X___x;; it was all Japanese little things like ramen bowls, japanese pancake mix, a couple of bottles of sake and japanese beer and some cute japanese snacks.. it was really nice ^__^ my brother musta felt like an ass giving me a best buy card but oh well, i didn't tell them what i wanted in time anyway.. we ordered wine and ate a LOT and then i got my little birthday cake of doom -____-;; always fun hanging out with my family and friends.. my bro told me that he's going boarding in February at Killington.. AND I CAN GO THIS TIME =D yay for me falling on my booty.. i spent the rest of the night trying to fit everything into one suitcase.. i didn't even put the 5 bottles of alcohol (JD from govan, Kahlua from Christmas, 2 sake bottles and one beer bottle from ghost and yusuke) and i brought my little Stoli bottles too.. so that added up in weight.. in addition, i had the dishes that ghost gave me.. and all my clothes and shoes and what not.. the bag was literally 90 pounds.. i could BARELY lift it.. way, i take that back, i couldn't lift it.. it was more like a dragging struggling crying motion of sorts.. so the next morning i caught an early transit to pennstation then subway to port authority.. bla bla.. the trip was long but thank god for escalators and elevators woot! and then some bum asked me if i was filipino and said "you're gorgeous".. that's new york for ya.. took a cab back to campus and settled back in.. met my new roomie who seems pretty cool.. i don't get along with her as well as i did with chevonne but we don't seem to have any big problems yet.. the first week of school.... was the first week of school =P i didn't do much except go to my classes and smoke with frank.. tho on thursday, my actual birthday (thanks to EVERYONE who sent me texts / IMs / anything, you guys are the shit) i went out to a bar and ate and drank the night away with frank and two of my guy-friends sancho and greg.. somehow we got on topic of the Mortal Kombat song.. how awesome was that? the partying continued the next night when i went out with the FSAers to White Horse and then to Kell's.. i was really trashed that night.. saturday, the partying continued yet again when i went out with frank to meg's function at a bar called The Rack.. we played pool, took shots, drank and danced the night away, ran around trying to find a cab in freezing whether in the middle of downtown boston at 2AM.. ah, reminds me of freshman year.. then to meg's place to watch family guy for a little then passing out at home.. yesterday, i did a whole lot of absolutely nothin.. i think i cleaned my room and did some studying for my kanji quiz and for IS.. *sigh* dictionary form verbs tomorrow blah so today was nothing interest.. i went to class WOOHOO! but i made salmon and didn't burn it this time =D =D =D yum, i heart seafood (sorry, toki, tai, jun) must learn how to cook more.. oh, so i'm in a big gloating mood.. i'm gonna list what i got for christmas XD - gift cards (target, commerce bank) - HUGE electric griddle (i had to leave it at home tho since i took the bus to boston T________T;; i can't use the pancake mix that ghost and yusuke gave me on it booo) - LOTR - Return of the King Extended Version (i'ma dork) - iSkin case for my ipod.. that thing is AWESOME - Corpse Bride poster.. it's so purdy - Saving Private Ryan DVD (wanted it for YEARS woot!) - Godiva from kazuya ^^ i still have toki's Mr & Mrs. Smith DVD here =P i'll try to mail that asap.. are u still getting me the playboy lighter, t-chu? let me know! btw, i miss everyone.. upset that i can't see jun before she leaves =( but if you read this jun, have an AMAZING time and molest a pretty boy for me when sweet's not looking.. and miss my yakuza in general and sad i couldn't see them on my birfday.. i'll come back and we can get drunk tho =D oh yah! i'm going to new york this coming weekend for my friend's birthday thing so i may go home at some point during the weekend.. text me and let me know when ur free so we can meet up and bug out XD *sigh* yay for blogging and yay for not using Internet Explorer.. tho my scrollbars are all.. not the way i made them but whatever =P atleast it doesn't freeze and not work on me and it has tabbed browsing XD AMAZING.. okie, kids.. gonna end this here and attempt to get my ass to the gym.. =P leave 20. Listen. // // He satisfied me Monday, January 23, 2006 @ 03:01 p.m. [-- WARNING: friggin. long. blog. i'll warn you right now.. i started this blog maybe a week ago and everything that's happened since then has built up and added to its longness.. so beware, it is not the for faint of heart.. it shall begin. so! christmassy-type-thing. wait, no. skipped a whole lot.. SO! i left boston on wednesday and got here about 5 hours later feeling thoroughly worn out from being crowded on the train.. stupie holiday travelers (tho i am one myself).. after my dad picked me up, we went to olive garden which was mucho delicioso.. i ordered the seafood portofino like always but my dad ordered the chicken vino bianco.. god, that was good.. i need to get that next time cuz it was mucho the yummy.. lots of garlic but delicious, none-the-less.. thennn i went to applebees with govan to have a hooker breakfast aka coffee and cigarettes.. and she told me many many tales of her adventures in london.. i wish it wasn't so damn expensive there, i'd actually think of going there.. thennnn.. thursday.. i... was supposed to go shopping with my mom but i ended up staying up all night and she wanted to go to woodbury commons which is in upstate new york.. that was not gonna fly with me.. SO.. i slept most of the day and ended up going to a diner with govan and justine.. govan and i continued with our hooker breakfasts while we watched justine eat and made fun of ugly jersey girls.. THEN, friday i went to Daniel's for his birfday celebration.. i woke up, showered and bought a handle of SoCo and some Bailey's before heading over there.. we sat and ate and talked for a while and toki had a few smokes with me.. then Skin recorded a few songs and had a few drinks.. by then, many were buzzed and just having fun and then Daniel went and spilled beer on toki's new express shirt and jacket.. then it kinda went downhill from there.. toki was mad and wanted to go home and tai wanted to stay and i was getting upset cuz toki was upset.. and bla bla.. so after a cigarette, toki bounced and went home.. and i hung out with everyone for a while.. met some people that i don't remember their names O___o;; i was suddenly reminiscent of days of old when i used to go to all filipino parties in a house in Edison somewhere.. anyway, we hung out there and jun came and we played Naruto and i went home afterwards.. there were mucho the snugglz.. it was fun then saturday, i went to VA with my parentals for christmas.. that was cool, got mucho the cool presents from everyone including this massive griddle that i can do yakiniku on and cook pancakes and even hibachi style food.. i need to buy some sake tho.. thennn i spend the night at my cousin Andrew's place which was also cool.. we drank this AMAZING wine and they showed me Fatal Frame.. that game is creeeppyyyy.. but fun at the same time the next day, we headed to andrew's parents house for lunch and randomly i decided to stay in VA for Andrew's 21st birthday celebration which i heard about from the summer and just take a train home.. so from there, we went to friday's to have a few drinks.. andrew ended up getting pretty drunk along with ericka (his girlfriend) and i met a bunch of andrew's friends from work and from high school.. I ended up becoming the designated driver, driving in Virginia for the first time.. thank god I could follow their roommate home.. but the night was mucho the fun tymz anyway hehe I woke up in the afternoon the next day and we headed to sushi for dinner to celebrate andrew’s birthday.. I was UBER filled with sushi, god it was good and the salad was amazing for some odd reason.. a full stomach later, we went home and waited for more people including my cousin David who i’ve been really close with since we were really young.. so we headed out to DC in a few cars and ended up getting very lost.. it took us about an hour and a half to get there =( by the time we got there everyone was really grumpy especially since we had to walk almost 15 minutes to get to the bars when we could have parked right on that street.. But we ended up going to this bar called the Reef and I hung out and talked to my cousin for a while about random stuff.. we drank.. a lot. I was thoroughly drunk in about an hour.. and I chummed it up with andrew’s friends from work.. they are so fun. Hehe I need to go back there for meg and maya’s birthday.. that’d be awesome.. We headed home after and I passed out.. david tried to get with these two gay guys who ended up coming to our house.. weird but atleast Andrew and ericka knew them.. then I woke up the next day when David came in to my room and we talked until his parents came and picked him up.. good times.. I miss hanging out with him.. =( Andrew and ericka brought me to the Union Station in DC to catch my train home.. it was cool cuz they rode the metro with me since I know absolutely nothing about the metro there.. then I treated them out to lunch since I owed them so much for letting me stay over for so long and all and for taking me to the train station.. I rode the train home and my dad picked me up at the station and we headed home.. but i got a text from govan saying she wanted to do something which was cool.. we went to a Tuesdays, it just happened to be the only one that you can’t smoke indoors in =( but we had fun anyway, it was cool seeing Vanessa and Jordan.. Thursday, I went to dinner with ghost and her family for her birthday.. I ended up driving to a random arirang for hibachi.. it was nice seeing her family since I haven’t seen them in a long time.. we had fun watching the cook do his tricks and stuff.. me and ghost and yusuke and phil, ghost’s brother ordered some drinks.. the food was great and we had fun.. the only downside to the night was that it took so damn long to get there.. otherwise, super the fun tymz.. Friday, I went to another Tuesday’s with tony, govan and Justine before heading back to my house with govan and watching ANTM all night.. it was an old season but highly fun at the same time =D Thennn.. Saturday, I actually had plans for new years!! Amazing!! So I woke up, showered and went to tony’s for a bit where govan and Justine were just to hang out for a little bit.. I completely forgot which house his was tho so I ended up stopping at two different houses before getting to his =P thennn I headed to toki’s around 9 suttin.. and everyone was there! Toki, tai, kazuya, jun, sweet, Daniel and tai’s brother sam.. we started the drinking as I got there and laughed and talked and played with toki’s dog, cashew.. in the words of tai, he’s such a “furry pouty turtle”.. cashew’s the silly.. so after we had drank a bit and tai and Daniel were well on their way we played drunken twister.. oh, it was glorious.. tho kazuya and toki thoroughly rocked so it took forever for them to finish =P we actually had to start pointing at specific dots on the mat.. and they STILL wouldn’t go down.. Fun tymz! =D twister is the BEST game to play when ur drunk.. so we hung out more and jun and sweet left since he was tired.. and we played a few more rounds but this time I was EXTREME twister.. oh yes. I have taught them well.. basically, extreme twister is where everyone plays really aggressively and knocks people down.. there’s pushing and head butting and everything.. sam did this amazing matrix pose over Daniel, that was great.. Man, we were beat tho.. after that, we all drank a little bit more and passed out in toki’s living room.. The next day we woke up and ate pizza and meatballs and played with cashew before peacing out.. that was great =D I ended up going to the city with jun to the city on Monday where we headed to Chinatown and the underground mall.. we bought naruto frog coin purses =D or how it says in hiragana (totally wrong, it should be katakana, but whatever) “naruto saifu” teehee.. then we went to a bakery and bought some yummy foods and then to h&M.. I bought a fedora and a black shirt that apparently looks smexy on me =D Then we headed home around 9ish and bought some wendy’s before getting back to jun’s place.. we were playing Naruto video games before we started blazing.. oh god, I was so done.. I couldn’t feel my hands and the effects were coming in waves.. it was great cuz I was watching jun and sweet play Naruto 4? And it was like watching this CRAZY fight scene in the anime.. they’re so good.. and I just start laughing out of nowhere.. I swear, when I smoke, the buzz stays for like 6 hours.. it’s really bad.. so I tried to pass out on their couch but couldn’t sleep so I laid there till I was sober enough to drive.. then G came down and let me out so he could lock the door and I drove home around 5AM =P Tuessdayyyy.. I didn’t really do anything interesting.. I think I just slept the whole day, really Thennnn.. Wednesday I went to jersey gardens with Faith, my fetus friend of doom.. teehee, that was awesome.. we walked around, shopped and bought each other our Christmas presents.. annnddd.. yah talked about our parents and everything.. we actually covered most of the mall, a miracle in itself.. teehee Thennnn off to faith’s place where we watched Sex and the City for a while.. SO addicting, god it’s terrible.. then I watched Nanny 911.. great show too TV, it rots the brains Thennnn Thursday.. I went to Fridays with govan, Vanessa, Justine, and kristyn to hang out and have some food and drinks and smokes.. we actually saw or flaming friend keith who used to attempt to molest me in art class in highschool.. he’s such a queen.. teehee That was good times.. then on Friday, my family from Virginia and the Philippines came over and had dinner with his.. my brother and his wife, janne and my auntie tet and my cousin keith came over with alberto.. I’m not sure if he’s her husband or just.. a dude.. in our family =P So.. that was fun since my family’s really silly.. and then my brother tells me that he and a bunch of people were going snow boarding yesterday.. I was like “boo” since I already had plans to go to the city with the yakuza and later meet up with govan and frank who was coming down from boston.. So boo times, I didn’t get to fall on my butt trying to snowboard but.. I guess that’ll have to wait till later =T.. oh and we watched the wedding video my brother brought and it was amazing.. the cinematography was great and I apparently was saying weird stuff in the camera lol Then they watched the Phantom of the Opera till late and I passed out early.. I woke up yesterday and headed to toki’s place around 1:30 and we got there, grabbed some wendy’s and headed to the Metuchen station.. then we caught a train to new york and walked around in Ktown once we got there.. we wanted to take sticker pictures like old times but.. it wasn’t there =( Thennn, we WALKED to Chinatown.. luckily I was really in the mood to walk all over the place cuz it was far.. but we headed to Chinatown after getting directions from jun who was the sleepiez.. then we were kinda like “uh, where are we?” and some REALLY nice guy came up to us and told us directions how to get there.. that was awesome.. So we walked there and stopped in a comic store where toki and tai bought some manga and continued on our long journey to Chinatown.. eventually we got there and found the underground mall and I bought a bag that looks like gaara’s gourd XD It’s so awesome! And then toki bought tai a loofy plushie were he’s riding the going merry and toki bought a byakuya keychain.. I’m not sure what sam bought tho.. I kno he got some stuff.. and we were disappointed cuz the guy that sells amazing posters wasn’t there.. his store was closed.. boo tymz =( So afterwards, they decided to take the subway back and we parted ways so I could meet up with govan, frank, angela and Jason, a bunch of people from BU.. we met in Union square at this place called Heartland Brewery.. luckily for govan, they didn’t card and we drank quite a bit, laughing, dancing and hanging out.. that was cool =D Angela and Jason left to catch a bus back to Long island and me, govan and frank hung out a bit.. then we headed out after drinking a bit more and tried to look for a bar that govan could get into.. we went to bar None but it looked sketch so we didn’t end up going in.. then we caught a train home and then to matawan diner where I had the most amazing fries ever.. the burger was good too but the fries were definitely the highlight of my meal haha Thennnn.. we went over govan’s and crashed in her room and woke up today around noon.. we hung out, watched TV and ate little pan pizzas before heading out to wawa on the way to dropping frank off at the bus station so he could catch his train back to boston in new york.. Then govan drove me back to my car which I had left at toki’s place and I drove home and here I am.. I need to pack for cali tomorrow.. my parents told me outta nowhere that we were going with some relatives.. I’m cool with it.. now I can get a tan and everything before I get back to school tho going from san diego’s 60 degree weather to boston’s negative 10 will NOT be fun.. *sigh* arighteez, I’m tired and need to pack so I’m gonna end this here.. this was a LONG-ASS blog but there was actually something to blog about so there! Have fun, I hope you don’t have a headache from reading this obscenely long entry.. but you all kno u wanna kno about akio’s life.. it happened to have been quite social in the past month.. much a contrast to my school life =P it shall be done. Ciao for now. Listen. // // He satisfied me Sunday, January 8, 2006 @ 05:45 p.m. [-- see? no one leaves me comments. this is why i don't blog. cuz no one reads it. Listen. // // He satisfied me Thursday, December 22, 2005 @ 09:41 a.m. [-- FINALLY DONE okay so life doesn't suck so much anymore.. tho it still sucks a bit. first things first: to those who commented on my entry about shirakawa-sensei, thanks for commenting. i'm so happy to hear from other people that they were upset by the news and especially how BU went about it. Just in case you're not aware, there is a facebook group called "Rest In Peace Sensei" where you can join and post announcements. Maybe if we get more information later on like how to send his family cards or anything, it will be posted there. Either way, thanks for your support. and yes, I also hope sensei's drinkin sake with buddha and i hope buddha is laughing his ass off at his jokes no matter how many times he cracks them. in other news, i'm leaving in about 4 hours or so to go home. I'm getting home around 7 so anyone that wants to actually do anything afterwards, let me know by texting me or sending me an IM. I'm occupied on the 22nd (mom and daughter day). Otherwise, i'm free friday but i'm leaving for Virginia to celebrate christmas with the family on saturday. So let me know if you wanna chill. I'm basically free after that. Ghost: i'll be able to go to your birthday thing, let me know what the plan is later when i talk to you. toki: is the new years thing still on? Let me know cuz i'm gonna confirm it as my plans for new years. otherwise, i'm going to fill out a survey to kill time: 58 questions so I can get to know YOU! Name?: Akio / Enciso Birthday?: January 19th. God, i'm turning 22. bleh Astrological Sign?: Capricorn.. yah, stubborn. i'm also supposed to be a highly motivated worker but that didn't work out too well Where were you born?: Edison, NJ in JFK hospital, the same place my mom still works =P Current Location?: Boston, MA.. well, kinda boston. it's just a stretch of land BU claimed as boston with the same zip-code and all.. real boston is a few T-stops away.. actually you could prolly say it's boston since Fenway park is down the street.. The Physical Stuff.. Eye color?: dark dark brown.. thinking of color contacts soon.. any color suggestions? Hair?: reddish with black roots showing up.. eh, maybe i'll dye it again in a month or something Nationality?: Filipino / Chinese / American.. tho my last name is Portuguese.. yah, i'm confused too Height?: 5'7" and a halfish? i'm one tall filipino Body Type?: curvy..yah, curvy. Birth Marks/Scars?: haha too many scars to count Tatoo/s?: none Piercing/s?: just my ears Freckles?: nada Favorites! Color?: orange and green but orange more Food?: pizza.. i can it everyday Splurge item?: lotions O.o;; i have like 20. Movie Genre?: sci-fi / action Band?: right now? Tool's old stuff Animal?: kittens.. my god, kittens are the bane of my existence Item of Clothing?: right now? my only lacoste shirt.. and my black leather jacket.. they're smexy In a Boy/Girl... Eye Color?: green.. yum. Hair color?: jet black. Hair Length?: long and spikey or almost non-existent Body type?: thick, broad shoulders, nice pecs and biceps First thing you notice across the room?: height, hair, face Stereotype (if you had to pick one)?: kinda.. bouncer / business look. This or That.. Coffee or Tea?: depends on my mood.. usually coffee tho Target or Wal-Mart?: tar-jey. yay for cheap stuff Adam Sandler or Will Ferrel?: Will Ferrel. Milk or Cookies?: Cookieeezz.. yum Radio or CD?: mp3 Internet or Phone?: both suck. just meet up with me. Texting or Instant messaging?: texting. it's fun Skinny Dipping in a hot tub or Swimming in the rain? swimming in the rain? who would wanna do that? Summer or Winter?: winter. i hate the heat Single or Group dates?: depends on my mood The Dirt.. Any siblings?: one brother that i turn to only for computer-related issues.. he's a dork Are you currently in a relationship?: no,sir Do you have a crush on someone?: well considering that i had an extremely realistic dream about making out with a sophomore -___-;; possibly. tho it's purely sexual Ever spread a rumor?: not to my knowledge Are you a virgin?: hai Have you ever lied about your age?: nope. tho everyone thought i was 25 since i was like 16 Ever been drunk/high?: both.. not recently.. but considering the volume that it happened over the summer, i'm taking trying to make up for last time being sober Ever Stolen something?: oh yeah.. tho i got caught and i stopped Ever been to Jail?: nah Do you get along with your rents?: i love my rents.. they're silly.. and they spoil me Your worst fear?: not being able to do everything i want to.. and not finding someone special Your guiltiest pleasure?: hentai series and manga.. yah, i'm a big perv Randomness.. Hobbies?: i did have hobbies at one point.. where the hell did they go? Your ideal date?: any date sounds ideal right about now Quote?: "because that's what jesus would friggin do!" -Grey's Anatomy annndddd i'm done. i hate waiting for.. stuff. =P call me after 7:30ish if you wanna chill. heart you all. Listen. // // He satisfied me Wednesday, December 21, 2005 @ 06:43 a.m. [-- should be working. well, i should definitely be either studying or writing. but since my chu asked twice, i figured i should finally post my x-mas list. btw, if anyone gets me something, let me know. i'll get you something in exchange. i still have miya's return gift from last year -___-;; tho i'm not sure if she got me that dvd? i can't even remember the name =P anyway, i've been wracking my brain for what to ask for.. it all leads back to One Piece since there's you guys and all of two cousins of mine who understand why i would even want these things.. so here's my x-mas list (for friends... my family list is a whole nother story =P) - Black Kangol Fedora Size: Large (i believe these can be found at Hot Topic.. I've always wanted one, real bad. Though the price is high so i'd suggest making it a joint present with another person or something. Keep the receipt in case it doesn't fit.) ($30-$40) - One Piece plushes found here. I know it's a pain in the ass to buy online and all.. but god, they're so cute. i want. ($14.99) - Zippo Lighter: model 21031 Playboy Bunny Wave Satin Chrome ($24.95) only this specific model please. The other playboy ones look cheesy. This is the only decent one they have. - alcohol. I know it seems weird but I might as well get it as a present since I am usually hesitant to actually dish out money for it. Here's a list of stuff that I like: - Kahlua - Midori - Bailey's - Jim Beam - Johnny Walker Black Label - Jack Daniels - Southern Comfort The first three (Kahlua, Midori, Bailey's) would be ideal gifts since I'd probably never dish out money to buy alcohol that has no effect. i think that's about it, really. I'd ask for accessories since I have none but i'm allergic to all metal jewelry and anything that isn't stainless steel. that's it for now. now back to work. Listen. // // He satisfied me Saturday, December 17, 2005 @ 06:09 p.m. [-- WHAT. THE. FUCK. i just heard by some crappily written e-mail that my Japanese professor, Shirakawa-sensei, died suddenly over the weekend!!! WHAT THE HELL?? I'm seriously in shock, sad, scared and REALLY pissed off at the same time. Shock: obviously, this came out of nowhere, sad: i liked him as a professor and wanted to be in his section next semester tho it conflicted with my schedule, scared: we're apparently still taking the final exam written by a teacher that we haven't even seen or met or taken tests from and pissed off: because they told us on Monday when he was late for class that he was okay. Monday, I got to Japanese class about half an hour early since I was tired from pulling an allnighter. After 20 minutes, I went into the classroom and waited there with the other students that were still arriving.. 1:55 passes and we're all sitting there wondering where sensei is. it's 10 past 2 and we're all still sitting there convinced that he's coming and just had something to take care of since he's #1) NEVER been late, always arrived around 5-10 minutes before class and #2) NEVER cancelled class (and we especially never thought he'd cancel class without notifying us first, he's not the type of professor to do that) THEN some random person comes and says that class is cancelled. Of course, we're all sitting there sorely disappointed that on the last day of class, Sensei isn't there, we didn't get our tests back and we didn't get to review for the final. But when one student asks if he's okay, the girl said "yes". JESUS FUCKING CHRIST, WOMAN. SENSEI IS DEAD. did she not think that we should know??? this is our sensei. We've been with him for a whole semester. And they don't tell us while we're sitting there waiting for almost 15 minutes for him to come that he died?? and on top of that! they send out some crappy written-in-1-minute e-mail that he "suddenly died over the weekend" and that we're taking the test from some other professor. so what the hell am I supposed to think? This person that we've seen 4 days a week for the past few months is dead and all they say is "We are very sorry to announce that Professor Zenryu Shirakawa died suddenly last weekend. Please come to take your final examination as scheduled". what. the. fuck. a good man dies and they say nothing to his students except for some shitty e-mail. sensei deserved better. as a disciplined, funny, intelligent professor who we could tell has been teaching students for many years just by listening to him, he deserved better. i hate those fuckers for not even saying more than a sentence about his death. this day just turned bad. Listen. // // He satisfied me Tuesday, December 13, 2005 @ 12:13 p.m. [-- song request: to those One Piece-ers out there, if you have the ending 12 single Tsuki to Taiyo, can you send to me??? I dled it in a batch but it only had the instrumental O___o;; shanks. Listen. // // He satisfied me Thursday, December 8, 2005 @ 02:55 a.m. [-- i'm a pro at procrastinating and here i am again. I have a memo for Finance due in 7 and a half hours.. it should be done in a few hours anyway.. since i slept till late today, i can stay up all night to do it.. soooo glad classes are over in a few days.. then party on Friday.. woot for free alcohol FOUR JOBS YOU'VE HAD IN YOUR LIFE 1. volunteered at Filipino camp taking care of little cute filipinos kindergarteners.. amazing how much energy those kids have 2. intern at accounting firm 3. doesn't really qualify as a job but i'm the webmaster of BosMUN 4. annndd.. that's it, really FOUR MOVIES YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER 1. Any One Piece Movie with Sanji in it 2. The Professional 3. Equilibrium.. but only the fight scenes 4. Finding Nemo FOUR CITIES YOU'VE LIVED IN: 1. Edison, NJ 2. East Brunswick, NJ 3. Freehold, NJ 4. Boston, MA FOUR TV SHOWS YOU LOVE TO WATCH: 1. Drawn Together 2. Any show on VH1 3. Nip/Tuck 4. reruns of X-Files FOUR PLACES YOU'VE BEEN ON VACATION: 1. Caribbean / Virgin / Cayman Islands 2. Philippines 3. Las Vegas, NV 4. Florence / Rome / Capri, Italy FOUR WEBSITES YOU VISIT DAILY: 1. www.weather.com 2. forums.encisoonline.com (family forum created by my brother) 3. gmail 4. facebook.com FOUR OF YOUR ALL-TIME FAVORITE RESTAURANTS: 1. Red Lobster 2. Cheesecake Factory 3. Bertucci's 4. Vinny Testa's FOUR OF YOUR FAVOURITE FOODS: 1. Pizza 2. Gourmet Sandwiches 3. my Mom's steak 4. my Mom's Seafood Coconut Milk dish FOUR SCHOOLS YOU'VE ATTENDED: 1. St. Helena's 2. St. Rose 3. St. John Vianney (seeing a pattern?) 4. Boston University FOUR PLACES I'D RATHER BE RIGHT NOW: 1. out getting drunk 2. in my bed sleeping, tho it's right there 3. in my car, smoking, speeding and blasting music 4. with my yakuza annnnddd it's done! all is well. i made chicken soup.. it's tasty. ciao for now. Listen. One Piece Ep 213 // // He satisfied me Wednesday, December 7, 2005 @ 01:21 a.m. [-- survey of doom. swiped from her sexy self. 1. Name someone with the same birthday as you. i don't kno anyone who has my birfday.. i guess no one's cool enough to be born on the same day as me.. or i just don't meet enough people =P 2. Where was your first kiss? at a club called Avalon in Boston my freshman year.. 3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property? nope.. tho i have bumped into rude bitches at clubs therefore spilling alcohol drinks all over their skanky outfits 4. Have you ever hit on someone of the opposite sex? haha, do u even have to ask? 5. Have you ever sung in front of a large number of people? yesss, it was the norm back in my grade-school/high school days.. now i suck 6. What's the first thing you notice about the preferred sex? height.. i like tall ones *points* 7. What really turns you on? lotta things.. usually a thick muscular back and shoulders.. yum. 8. What do you order at Starbucks? black tea with honey and milk.. or a vanilla latte 9. What is your biggest mistake? slacking off so bad freshmen year.. it's hitting me hard now 10. Ever hurt yourself on purpose? not physically.. tho there have been situations that coulda been handled to better suit my own benefit.. 11. Say something totally random about you. chocolate covered expresso beans make me happy 12. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? nah.. tho i've gotten every single nationality under the sun.. 13. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? absolutely.. my endless Disney movie collection and Kim Possible are in high circulation 14. Did you have braces? at a very young age, yes.. first to have them, first to get them off.. 15. Are you comfortable with your height? most of the time yes.. jeans fit me well.. however, the very notion of dating an asian guy goes out the window being the one freak-of-nature filipino female that's over 5'7" 16. What is the most romantic thing someone of the preferred sex has done for you? the closest thing? went to the gym with me LOL as you can tell, i haven't had many romantic encounters 17. When do you know it's love? don't have a clue.. look to two earlier entries 18. Do you speak any other languages? crappy Japanese.. still learning so i have an excuse 19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon? nah, i'm scurred of those.. tho i heard they're really relaxing 20. What magazines do you read? used to read Shape.. and Cosmo once in a while.. cosmo got old though 21. Have you ever ridden in a limo? yup.. once for senior prom and once for my bro's wedding.. 22. Has anyone you were really close with passed away? nah.. tho i've friends and relatives who have lost someone dear.. 23. Do you watch MTV? Not since 8th grade 24. What's something that really annoys you? fake ppl, liars and people who push their ideals on others 25. What's something you really like? anime, sleeping, smoking, cooking 26. Do you like Michael Jackson? he was good back in the day.. now he's just weird 27. Can you dance? absolutely.. you wanna see? 28. What's the latest you have ever stayed up? prolly a little over 48 hours.. 29. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die? when i was throwing up in a toilet for 4 hours after drinking a three wise men shot, yes.. 30. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? yes, eighth grade.. i fainted during my confirmation because of an ear infection.. right after the anointing with oil.. it was glorious. the pastor from my parish came to the hospital and everything.. after i got to high school, everyone knew me as that girl that passed out at confirmation.. went out tonight... (it's now almost 3AM).. went to a party at eric's and left after a couple of nasty beers then to the dugout to meet with frank's friend Megan and her friend Sarah.. then to COrnwall's where Megan was thoroughly wasted and stole 4 glasses from the bar.. highly amusing minus the walking in the freezing cold.. thank god i can feel my thighs again.. pasta and sauce cooked all ghetto-ly since our microwave isn't working and then to bed for an early team meeting tomorrow.. officially hating school yet again. let it be over, please. ciao. Listen. // // He satisfied me Friday, December 2, 2005 @ 07:52 p.m. [-- sorry, kids well here i am.. as toki said: "your blog is so sexy but you don't write in it." yes, indeed this is true. this blog is truly sexy. however, my ability to write whole blogs is few and far between.. my apologies. so let's talk about everything that's been going on lately.. let's see.. well, during one weekend, i met up with a bunch of people at ZBT for a BosMUN staff social.. that was cool.. lots of drinking involved.. met a lot of chill people particularly a cute guy from Spain.. i believe his name is Gorca (or something to that effect).. we played a few games of pool which was fun.. it's been a while.. then i watched them play beerpong.. Gorca insisted i play but i suck.. and i also couldn't stomach all that Bud light.. that's okay, really.. overall, a very fun night =D oh! so that night i dyed my hair red.. me and frankwinz had a hair dying party LOL.. we actually went out to a Sally Hansen cosmetic store, bought the dye together and met up at my place to dye our hair while watching a pirated version of Chicken Little on frank's laptop.. THEN i went to ZBT.. hehe the next weekend, i met up with my former Core teammates on friday night.. yet another fun encounter.. remembering our semester from hell and some of the fun tymz we had.. first, we went to sunset grill and had a few drinks before heading over the Beckett's for more drinking and some dancing.. after receiving several.. more-than-thorough lapdances from Matt and watching Matt and Tsi molest Helah, i called it a night and walked back with Matt to pass out.. then saturday was FSA's show where I had to sing the Filipino national anthem.. i did horrible, btw.. i've lost all ability to sing.. i attribute this to my smoking habits =P the show was awesome and just hanging out with everyone was fun.. BU and the rest of the schools were awesome.. NU especially made a good showing.. i took lots of pics.. which will all contribute to the new website layout that i plan on making over winter break.. afterwards, i pregamed with the seniors from last year who came to visit or who are still working here.. we drank some chocolate tequila which is REALLY yummy.. then we headed to the club and danced the night away.. MUCHO the fun tymz hehe.. thennnn i went home the tuesday afterwards and spent most of the time shopping with my mom.. then thanksgiving which equals good food tymz and fun pictures with plush toys on our heads.. we're silly.. on friday, i went to tai's band practice at daniel's house.. i was really impressed.. i hope to see them perform again soon.. we sat and talked and ate for a while after which was fun.. then we watched Versus.. that's a silly movie but amusing at the same time.. then kazuya came.. her and daniel are dating now =D then.. hrm.. we hung out a lil and i headed home.. it was utterly freezing outside though.. on saturday, i met up with ghost and yusuke at garden state plaza for a hot second before heading back to edison to meet up at tai's place for some dinner.. since we were all broke and hungry, we decided to go to a grocery store and just cook instead.. that was a fun experience lol.. a collaborative effort, if you will.. anyway, that turned out pretty good.. then we hung out a bit and i think we watched.. something O.o;; i forgot what tho.. oh! it was Boondocks lol.. randomness.. anyway, then i headed home and got back here on sunday night just to find out that i had left my laptop adapter at home.. not good =( but i got it mailed to me yesterday so it's allgood now =D aright well, i should really be writing a paper so i'm gonna end this here.. this blog wasn't too interesting but once something interesting does happen, i'll let you know LOL Listen. // // He satisfied me Wednesday, November 30, 2005 @ 11:45 p.m. [-- let's procrastinate... and talk about random things at the same time.. i should be reading for political science tomorrow but #1: i don't feel like it (tho it is somewhat interesting but badly written) #2: my head is all over the place about random things and #3: my printer's a bitch and won't work so i have to read it off a computer screen which allows me to get distracted by say, oh, my blog. =P wow, i just realized it's pretty much been a month since i last blogged -_____-;; my bad, guys. i start blogging and then i get distracted and then it just doesn't end up getting finished.. anyway, in the span of a month, i've gone home once (well, to VA really.. for my cousin's cotillion) and been out a few times including halloween and a couple of random weeknights when i felt liberated enough to spend money for my own selfish pleasures. otherwise, everything's been basically the same.. had lunch with angela and frank today and laughed my ass off about random things.. fun tymz. anyway, so the highlight of this blog is to talk about something deeply personal.. i've been thinking about this for a while.. somehow, in the span of these past 4 years, i've lost my ability to talk to people without a hint of fearing their impressions of me.. i contribute this mostly to availability.. some of my friends live far, we have conflicting schedules, so forth.. though here (in Boston) the friendships i have don't allow me to speak comfortably with anyone.. not the way i want to.. so, i guess this is really the only place i can talk about this stuff.. i'll kind of throw it out there.. tho judging from the people who read my blog, none of you can really identify with what i'm about to say.. which once again, leaves me at the point where i'm stuck in limbo about the issue.. so here's the topic of today's thoughts: love. that's right, love. dear god, if there were a more confusing word to choose, i wouldn't be able to find it in a thousand dictionaries. however, this is what has been on my mind for a while.. say, the past few months, actually.. what the hell is love? to all of you out there with your hearts in someone else's hand, if you could describe it, how would u? everyone'll have a different answer.. "it comes when you least expect it" "when it happens, you'll just know".. so forth.. and here comes the main question: why am i so incapable of loving? there are kids who've been in relationships since they were, oh let's say 15 and even younger than that.. they believed at that time they were in love.. even if this person would be their significant other for no more than a month the words "i love you" didn't seem awkward.. they didn't have a moment's hesitation waking up every morning to the same person, sharing the same things with them and basically integrating this person into their lives.. so why is it so damn foreign to me? why when i see "love" do i view it through a glass pane? i can see it all.. i can try to understand it.. but i don't know it, i can't feel it.. for the past year or so, i've been so emotionally vacant.. before when i used to complain about not having a boyfriend it was usually in the context of "why is so-and-so not my boyfriend?".. in contrast, at this point in time i can officially say i haven't had a crush in almost a year. i have not had bonafide feelings for someone in a lonnnggg time. i haven't thought of a guy as more than "hot" or "not hot" in that period of time.. if you were to ask me "out of all the guys you know right now, if you had to choose one to date, who would you pick?" i wouldn't have an answer.. my emotional palette is empty. first off, i think it's mostly because my availibility is low.. i don't meet many new guys in the first place.. if i do, it's only once and i don't create a strong enough relationship in that span of 3 hours to actually create a potential for relationships.. if i don't meet guys, obviously i can't have crushes on them.. but then again, when i'm out there and i'm talking to guys.. i get this odd feeling.. it's like, i'm looking through that glass pane again.. i can see myself talking to this guy.. and all i can see is how much i don't really want to be talking to him.. in the back of my head i'm thinking "say something funny, interesting, cool".. why? for the obvious reason: so he'll like me. i'll put on some weird act and be someone that i don't really want to be just so i can get this dude's attention.. now that really bothers me. i've crossed the threshold of wanting to desperation.. i suppose the reason for my not going out and meeting guys is because of this awkwardness.. the reason being that: i don't want to get to know these people but i will for the sake of being social some people are naturally curious.. take govan for example.. the total opposite of me.. she can ask ANYONE a question out of pure curiosity and just open friendliness.. if you waited for me to do that, you'd have to wait for a few years.. i'll meet someone new and i'll ask these questions like "oh, where are you from? what's your major?" make comments on what their saying and try to have a decent conversation with them.. at the same time, it feels so forced.. like i am practically pulling teeth just to talk to this person whether it be a guy or girl from one of my classes where does the initial interest in someone come from? for me: looks. my first impression of people are always outwards.. if the guy's hot, i'd be happy to talk to him and get to know him.. if the guy's not, then well, i guess it's all right to talk to him.. if he's actually interesting and we have something in common, then by god, i'll try to find out more.. my interest would be sparked.. however, the latter has happened sparingly in the past few years.. getting past the "where are you from?" stage and keeping my attention has not been frequent at most social gatherings.. it's not enough that a person is just friendly anymore.. before, my first reaction to people was "okay." the second they act friendly toward me it's like "yay, let me get to know you because you're nice." that logic has absolutely disappeared.. y'kno, i was talking to my friend eric and he said that these past few years have been a real change for him.. i've changed alot.. even in the past year or so i look back on things i did last summer and i thought "i was a friggin idiot" he says he changed for better. i don't think i have at all.. in the span of my 4 years of college, i've become anti-social and i don't know how.. it started at the end of sophomore year.. i stopped caring about going out to parties, talking to people online, so forth.. the things that used to make up my life now weren't.. even now, i don't feel the need to talk to people.. everyone wonders why i don't IM them or respond to their IMs or don't call them.. even my parents wonder.. it's because i just don't feel like it.. when i see a person face-to-face, for some reason it's different.. obviously if my yakuza asks me to hang out i'll immediately say yes why? because i like to. they're fun, i can identify with them and we have similar interests.. they understand me.. as do my other close friends from high school (k2c and the group formerly known as sfg).. i'm genuinely curious about their lives.. however, for some reason, going online and talking to those same people whom i love just doesn't seem all that appealing.. before it used to be one in the same.. for some reason.. i don't know why but it isn't anymore.. eliminating AIM from my everyday interaction is obviously a causal factor in my inability to socialize.. online, you form relationships, bonds and you say things you couldn't possibly say in person.. but then again, what caused my sudden disdain for talking online? i have no idea. i've strayed from the topic at hand.. love! that's right. right now, i can try to imagine what having a relationship with someone is like.. for instance, genuinely enjoying their presence every day, doing non-sexual things together, sharing everything.. ideally, this is how relationships start then eventually sex follows but with deeper meaning and emotion and all later on when the relationship is stronger.. i can't even seem to grasp that. it's like.. i see it.. it's so obviously in front of my face.. but i can't take it in at all. once again, because i've never been in love.. nor have i EVER had these feelings for someone.. love is a strong word.. it's not everyday people fall in love so i won't say that i'm feeling deprived from not having done so.. some people wait their whole lives to find the right person.. i hope to god i won't have to but it's one of those things where the second after you fall in love, every single year of your life that u've been waiting to won't make a difference.. you'll pretty much have forgotten it all.. this is the difference i have seen between people who have been in love and who haven't.. tho i'd hafta say.. that out of all of the people i know, there is me and probably 2 other people that have NOT fallen in love at this time in their lives.. the other 2 people i (and all my other friends) consider asexual.. they don't like boys or girls.. they don't like people enough to have a strong enough relationship to call love.. this doesn't make them awkard or unpleasant.. on the contrary, both of them are insanely friendly and funny.. but for some reason, relationship wise, there's not just a few screws missing, the whole damn thing isn't there.. so aside from the 2 asexual people, why is it that i'm the only one that hasn't felt this ground-breaking changing-your-life experience called love? and before that, why am i still incapable of even understanding the basics of a regular relationship? people say "oh, it'll happen when you least expect it" bla bla bla, yes, i've heard it all before.. tho of course the only people who say that are people who have been in love.. therefore they can say it not because it's just something they know but it's something they've experienced.. it's like you've crossed the love threshold and there's no turning back.. despite that it'll happen whenever it will, it still doesn't help me right now.. so to say the least, yes i do want to experience this love thing eventually.. it doesn't have to be now.. i kinda would prefer it to be after i graduate since i heard that when love first hits, it's like the world is over.. my GPA will suffer terribly.. this obscenely long blog entry is proof that emotional distraction results in my inability to do work.. but even just having a decent relationship would be good.. maybe that would somehow fill the huge void i've got right now.. the feeling that something's missing.. the funny part is that i contribute not having a relationship to me being anti-social yet i blame being anti-social on not having a relationship.. circular, much? i think another thing is that i'm at the age where.. basically you should have been in a decent relationship and or in love by then.. so let's see.. from groups of friends-wise: yakuza: everyone's in a relationship k2c: everyone's in a relationship sjv kids: everyone except.. hrm, 3-ish? i'm not sure if Jordan's dating someone.. BU: the singles are quickly diminishing.. the single underclassmen are now dating each other so that just knocks everyone out of the single game, then the other except frank? all with someone.. it's becoming harder and harder to identify with everyone.. my friends are still my friends, whether they're in a relationship or not.. i love them.. however, with my friends are their significant others.. they've already been incorporated into their lives therefore their significant others spill over.. they become my friends then.. they are now ALL my friends.. yes, this means more friends but the bond between each friend isn't the same.. obviously the bond that tai and toki have isn't the same as the one as i have with either of them.. the same with ghost and yusuke, the same with trina and khoi, the same with govan and marty.. when they talk about relationships, when we go out to dinner and they immediately order for both of them or don't even think for a second to split the bill.. and talking about little quirks like "he sleeps like this" or "she does this when she wakes up".. that is so foreign to me.. it doesn't make me uncomfortable.. there's no way i can be uncomfortable with these people unless they were blatantly doing uncomfortable things in front of me.. what it does do is it makes me curious.. "what is that like? what is it that these people are feeling? obviously it's a good thing.. despite all the arguments and so forth, in the end these relationship-type-things are good.. they make my friends happy.. i want to have it too. and in addition, by having it, i can identify with what my friends are experiencing as well.. " that's what i'm thinking. it's kinda like.. my friends and i all start out at the same level.. development-wise.. intelligence, maturity.. we discover some things together and some on our own.. we move upward toward more experiences not really simultaneously but relatively in the period (years).. everyone seems to have gotten past that period marked "relationships / love".. some people broke through it really early.. others, it's a new thing.. for me.. i haven't even reached it yet.. i was eating lunch with angela today.. last year, she met a guy randomly who lived down the hall and before she knew it, she fell in love, REALLY hard.. she plans on getting married in a couple of years, that's pretty serious.. so we were talking about when we wanna have kids and where to live and stuff when we get older (well for her, in a couple of years) once again i had that feeling of seeing this all behind a glass pane.. when i thought of kids i always thought "i have to get a job so i can save and my kids are well off" so forth.. i didn't even think for a second about the fact that my husband would also be doing the same.. it was like the very notion of mine and his money becoming "our money" just didn't exist.. i always thought of it as me shouldering all the burden of making money to raise kids and i was DEFTLY worried about what i would do when i have kids and i'd have to be out of work.. it's just ridiculous.. i never even stopped to think "my husband can take care of it while i'm out".. so the question really remains: when will akio / enciso end up falling in love or even.. have a relationship? in due time, i'll look back at this entry and think "so that's what i was like before i had experienced it.. it doesn't matter now." for now, tho.. it occupies my thoughts, to say the least. LOL the funny part is that everyone wants to know why i haven't had a boyfriend.. my friends, my friends' significant others, my family.. even my family's friends.. and all i can really say is "that's what i've been wondering for the past 8 years." P.S. i don't expect people to respond back with "aw, i'm so sorry" "don't worry, you'll find someone great" bla bla .. i'm not looking for sympathy.. and i don't expect people to understand.. not the way i do.. the advice i've gotten from everyone has always been the same.. and i get it, i don't need to hear reassuring words about it.. i've heard it time and time again.. i didn't write this hear so that everyone could read it and feel guilty and feel bad for me.. that's not how it is right now.. i just need to figure these things out for myself.. and since talking to people about it isn't really an option, here it is in writing.. not really for other people to read but more for me to see.. i thought about erasing this entry completely.. i've done that before where i've written down all my thoughts, pages of it.. and i'd erase it knowing that it was only for me to sort out what i was thinking.. this tho, i want a record of it.. i wanna be able to look back at it down the line and see what i was thinking.. and if it weighs over my head sometime in the near future, i can read this and get a clearer picture.. *phew* i feel better. okay, time to read for poli sci. btw, i miss everyone and i'll be home for thanksgiving.. those out-of-towners, let me know if you'll be going home for thanksgiving too.. a presto. Listen. Imagine - APC // // He satisfied me Tuesday, November 8, 2005 @ 01:13 a.m. [-- awwww my poor neglected blog of doom. yay people left me messages! *dances around* i heart you all for leaving me love. you have made my life much more.. love-filled O__o wahhhhhhhhh ojii-chan! (sorry, the nick stuck).. sowwie i missed your IMs!! YOU GET MUCHO THE LOVE FROM AKIO *big smooshies*.. where are u? i missiez you. ty-the-coon: *poke* sowwie i haven't been IMing you back.. you know how i have a really short attention span X__x;; i was distracted by the large pile of clothing on my bed i had to fold and put away.. but shanks for the link to the vampire-esque gackto pic XD XD XD he can bite me any day.. and to the rest of you + govan: i miss you guys T______T;; hope you're all doing great wherever you are (whether it be in jersey, PA or another country (ryu-chan, you silly canadian.. and of course govan: be sure to bite a hot british guy in my honor) woot! okie, done social blogging, me thinks. my fetus friend Faith stopped by n read before so if you do again i say "wuddup, thug?" okay, i'm really done social blogging.. so let's talk about my week + weekend.. i actually did something! yay! wednesday, i decided to be a rebel and go out.. my roomie, Chevonne, an awesome west indian junior in our college of fine arts, heard of a some kid she knew's band playing at a bar in brookline.. i figured i like seeing local bands and i should get out and meet people more.. so i headed out to the bar with her and bunch of her CFA friends.. we got there and the place was insanely crowded but still enjoyable.. i met a lot of pretty good-looking guys and some really sweet girls (i can't remember their names now, i met so many).. we sat and talked and drank (lucky for chevonne, they didn't card) and listened to the band's awesome music.. i smoked way too much but luckily i was not the only one.. the CFA kids smoke like chimneys on steroids.. i even took a break while they were puffing away on what had to have been their 15th cigarette.. after getting a good buzz, chevonne and i rocked out the band's music and around 1:30ish, caught a cab home.. it was a lot of fun and i wouldn't mind hanging out with them again.. everyone was just friendly and chill.. i was very apparently a new face.. me being one of the two non-CFA kids there.. (there happened to have been another SMG kid there.. one i don't really kno that well and for some reason, don't like that much).. the bartender was cute.. supposedly he had an irish accent tho i couldn't hear it over the blaring music.. and while i ordered a black russian, he said "that's a good drink. i'm glad, i could pour one tonight." of course i was thinking "mm-hmm, i'm sure you are." i had fun and hanging with the roomie was cool.. i wish she was 21 then we could go out together more often.. so, moving on to friday, i went to ZBT (i think it's Zeta Beta Tao.. ghosto, help me out here), an MIT frat on friday with a friend from freshman year, you may remember him, Eric.. since I'm basically a member of the BosMUN (Boston Model United Nations) secretariat, i was able to attend.. let's just say that i was impressed.. BU frat parties can be described with one word: sketchy. Crappy beer, sketchy guys, shitty locations. You're pretty much in a dump with a bunch of horny guys swarming around you. it didn't seem to bother me much when i was a freshman.. tho i was probably wasted 90% of the time therefore not caring.. so i got there.. they're frat house is sweet.. 3 floors, the basement had a DJ and a dance floor, small bar and decent music.. we ended up hanging in our friend Dan's room and talking about technology wars.. yah, we're dorks.. by the end of the night tho, I was surprised to find my self happily intoxicated.. surprised since all they served was natty light, smirnoff ice and mike's hard (eh, whatever, it was free, right?) and Dan helped me out with a shot of his good vodka.. shit, i can't remember the name.. =P i danced the night away and also got the phone number of some random kid from Harvard.. not bad looking but i was more than certain he was really drunk since everything he said made absolutely no sense.. he asked me if i was filipino and i said "yah" and he says "oh, but your from here?" and i said "yes, i was born here." and he goes "well, i only like pure filipinos" i'm like "...okay." then he goes "there's this party i'm going to at harvard, you wanna come?".. this is me: O________o "...... nah that's okay." weird weird kids from harvard.. =P on the way to the party when i went to go meet up with Eric, i was passing by a bar that i've gone to a couple of times and i heard someone go "lady in turqoise! lady in turqoise!" (i was wearing a turqoise hoodie [ghost, i bought that from aero with you]) i turned and to my surprise it wasn't a sketchy black or mexican guy talking.. it was a pretty cute blond kid and he goes "hey, how you doing tonight?".. i stopped for a second, smiled and said "sorry, i'm going to meet someone." woot, yay for boosting my ego. i haven't gotten cat-called by a white guy since the Red Sox riots last year when some kid (who was belligerently drunk) goes: "hey, beautiful! GO RED SOX!" and he puts out his hand for a high 5.. i was like ".. right. *gives him high 5*" boys are silly. but do good to thwart my lack of self confidence =P so that was my friday.. saturday, i did basically nothing except with hang out with frankwinz.. we were supposed to go grocery shopping that day but it was pouring like fuck.. we ended up just going to T. Anthony's (a pizza place) and ordering food there since both of our fridges were utterly empty.. it was mad busy there but we had fun talking about people who can't dance.. then i hung out at frankwinz's place and we watched Legally Blond -____-;; it was a cute movie, i have to admit.. the result was me feeling somewhat happy yet annoyed at the same time, we also watched SNL (with Ashlee simpson and her bad lip-synching) and shit, there was another movie we watched.. oh! Pleasantville.. i liked that movie. lots and lots of TV later, i went home and passed out.. i woke up in the afternoon Sunday and went grocery shopping with Frankwinz.. i have food to eat now =D which reminds me, i don't know what to make for dinner.. hrm.. we debated on going out but frank was feeling tired so i hung out until gB called me up and said him and some ppl were going to Tonic.. i met up with them there.. lainie came up from NY for the long weekend and corrales and her former roomie nisha was there.. hrm, we haven't smoked up together yet.. oh well. So anyway, the bar was pretty chill and not too empty considering it was a Sunday night and most college students went home this weekend.. so we drank and danced and talked and nisha broke a beer bottle while trying to stack up our drinking glasses on top of each other.. i tried to stay as far away from that disaster-waiting-to-happen as possible.. the bouncers were hot.. yum. i caught a cab home with the help of gB.. hey, gB if you're reading this, remind to give you money for the cab.. thanks again! woke up on Monday to go to a meeting for BosMUN with Dan and Eric.. we met at T.Anthony's... again. i've been there possibly 3 times in the past few weeks.. that's more than i've gone in the past three years combined.. so we ate and talked about logistics and what not.. nothing too stressful.. then Dan bounced and me and Eric talked for a while.. then..... i had dinner at some point and then a cigarette with frankwinz.. he had a big ol' test today. poor frankwinz. god, midterms are next week. not good tymz. but! that was my past week in a nutshell. it was cool. i guess i'll have my highs and lows this semester.. but this week was pretty up there.. well, i need to start and finish my IS project that's due tomorrow morning so i'll end this here.. leave me love, darlings. A presto. Listen. Wreck tha Discotek - Roger S. // // He satisfied me Tuesday, October 11, 2005 @ 03:38 p.m. [-- mucho the stress = mucho the smoking. i've already gone through a damn carton of cigarettes and the semester's not even half over.. *sigh* well, i've been uber busy for the past few days.. last minute planning to go to Virginia for my cousin's cotillion and then fixing the BosMUN website.. i'm now webmaster of a club i know absolutely nothing about.. i spent about 5 hours last night tweaking and basically learning HTML from scratch.. when viewing other sites, i realize that i'm extremely inexperienced in the proper way of implementing web design.. my HTML and code looks absolutely nothing like what they have.. and their system of page on page means that erasing one section of the website will require going through EVERY page on the website and deleting the HTML.. i don't kno if that's the standardized way of doing it but it's sure as hell annoying.. bleh. nevertheless, it's a good way to gain experience and also a good thing to put on my resume.. i miss everyone lots.. nothing interesting has happened aside from going to a party with frank last week... we went to his friend's place where everyone was already trashed.. but there were two good factors involved: good people + indoor smoking.. after a few hits from the beer funnel, i was good to go and socializing with strangers like my usual drunken self.. me and frank bounced early and i felt yucky.. uber the dehydration.. no water + alcohol + LOTS OF SMOKING = akio not being able to breathe.. we ended up taking a cab two blocks back to our building.. plan of action: eat, hydrate, drink, sleep. sounds like a plan. aright well i have a meeting with BosMUN people in 10 minutes so i'm gonna end this here. Leave me love cuz you lurv me. Listen. // // He satisfied me Friday, September 30, 2005 @ 03:11 p.m. [-- as i sat here... eating a King Size bag of peanut M&Ms, i suddenly began to contemplate the meaning of life and global justice. no, not because i'm some non-materialistic humanitarian but because i was holding an article on starvation in Afrida in my hand and reading it for my political science class.. i can somehow smell the irony in the air as i sit there stuffing my face with luxuriant candy and reading about children dying from malnutrition and struggling families on the wake of famine.. quote from article: There is a belief that when a stray black dog crosses your path, terrible times will come, he said. "Last year," he explained, "a black dog walked across the entire country." i realize how fortunate I am for the situation i've been given and become almost sad that while the world goes out of their way to empathize and educate themselves about worldwide poverty and adversity, we can really only sit in a $40,000 class room and be rich kids living in a city of rich kids going about our own self-fulfilling routines: throwing ourselves to the dogs of capitalism, succumbing to the temptations of indulgence in alcohol, drugs and personal possessions.. we'll sit in our nice cafes and read our $100 textbooks that could easily equal a year's worth of food for a dying woman in Malawi.. squandering our fate-given lives while others die of disease and hunger.. i can't say much.. i'm a glutton, a lush and i'd spend $5 on a pack of cigarettes any day.. but somehow, i'd like to break the boundary of the stereoptypical money-addicted "Americans".. i can't say i'll save all the starving people in Africa, many have tried and according to this article and other sources, there's lots of food and money being made from their produce but corrupt politicians claim the benefit for themselves.. i wonder how a person can feel so little toward their own people. no, I'd like to start out small.. maybe food donations at first.. then on to small educational facilities for the young.. eventually, I'd like to open a relief center for medical treatment, counseling with a soup kitchen and housing for the homeless.. it seems like Africa needs it the most.. the political turmoil and lack of economic growth in rural areas leave the poor people starving and the rich people not.. i'd like to start there and do as much as i can.. then i'd like to turn to the Philippines.. it is, afterall, my family's birthplace. the thing that separates those in Philippines and Africa is how they'll take the aid.. many addicted to drugs or resorting to holding young rich children for ransom won't simply stop and join a rehab facility or take a couple of worn out T-shirts in place of the money they'll make with previous endeavors.. i guess it comes down to: do the people want to be helped? i guess i'll find out later on in life.. of course, i realize that a substantial amount of money would be needed to realize these things.. but as i said, it will be gradual.. and hopefully in the span of my life, i may be able to make a difference to even a few people out there.. i can't change the world, it needs to change itself.. but we can atleast try to help out sometimes, right? i won't pretend that i'm not selfish but i'd like to think that there is a inkling of selflessness somewhere.. anyway, i'm done being all depressing.. i like to reflect on these things mostly due to lack of sleep.. i miss my yakuza. love to ty-the-coon and the ojiisan for sending me Before Dawn by AI-SACHI.. i LOVE it.. i heart you both.. and i'm thankful that her family didn't get affected by the storm that swept past Houston last week.. call it a blessing.. they were fortunate.. aright, i'm done here.. leave me love or criticism.. either one, i'll take with open arms.. a presto. Listen. // // He satisfied me Tuesday, September 27, 2005 @ 12:30 a.m. [-- in need of assistance anyone that has a P2P file sharing program PLEASE do me a favor and download the song Before Dawn by AI-SACHI.. it's an ending single from One Piece that i absolutely love and i can't find it anywhere.. my ares has stopped connecting and i REALLY don't wanna re-install WinMX so if anyone can find it and download it and send it to me, you will be my savior!! uh, that's it. i'm eating an apple. bye. Listen. // // He satisfied me Thursday, September 22, 2005 @ 09:26 p.m. [-- dah. well, there's some good news.. last night i took a tylenol PM to help me sleep after i took a lonnnggg nap so i could wake up for class at a decent time.. apparently a good night's sleep according to tylenol is really 12 hours... my alarm went off about 2 hours before my first class but i could not, for the life of me, wake up.. the medicine was almost grappling me back to sleep so i woke up maybe an hour before my class and threw clothes on, ate an english muffin and skiddadled.. the good news part of that was that i was seriously considering just skipping class.. my eyes wouldn't open and my bed was warm.. this is the exact situation where for the past three years i would think "i'll just skip today.. i won't skip for the rest of the semester" and end up doing it many many MANY times after.. i actually had the willpower not to stay in bed today and went to both my classes.. WOOT FOR ME. i gotta keep this up cuz... i should =P anyway, the bad news is that i left my check card in the ATM i used this afternoon -____________-;;; now one of two things may have happened.. #1, after 15 seconds or so of not pulling the card out, the card went back into the machine and into the custody of Bank of America until tomorrow morning when i go get it.. the other thing that may have happened is between that 10 seconds between me withdrawing money and the card going back into the machine, a person may have stopped to use the same ATM, saw my card there and took it.. so it's either i'm totally safe or i'm totally SCREWED. so.. tomorrow morning we shall know for sure.. god, i hate ATMs in the first place.. i never withdraw money but i suddenly got the urge to buy a bagel.. this is what i get for splurging on food i shouldn't be eating =P OH! and i have confirmed who it is that smells really bad in my Japanese class.. when i first encountered the horror that is BO in that class, i thought that it was this big fat white kid that does bad in the class and always seems to sit next to or behind me for some reason (prolly one of those "i came to this class to pick up asian chicks or because i'm obsessed with anime").. SO sketchy, btw.. but today i figured out he is the one that smells (his scent wasn't too alluring this afternoon either).. not ONLY is he fat, ugly and bad at Japanese, he also smells really bad.. it musta been a lot worse yesterday since it was 80 degrees out.. or because i was sitting downwind of him (atleast if he sits behind me, the wind from the windows doesn't blow his disgustingness toward me).. i don't know how much more unattractive you can get than that.. and the worst part is that i will once again be surrounded by people just like him when i go to otakon and animeBoston.. he fits the ideal otaku description.. personally, i take it as a compliment that people don't think i'm an otaku because of the stereotypes (geeks, nerds, dirty and UGLY).. but i'm not afraid to tell people that i am one.. us hygenic and attractive otaku are seriously being misrepresented.. i know lots of hot otaku.. they constitute 95% of my friends.. and shit! i love anime but it's not the reason that i'm learning Japanese.. i wanna go there one day and actually be a respectful foreigner who can speak the language.. not some dumb tourist who goes there to eat pocky and read manga.. you can do that here. okie, so from this, i have drawn three conclusions: 1) don't use ATMs. Charge EVERYTHING. 2) Smelly people smell therefore they suck. 3) Clean and good-looking otaku deserve more publicity. Take Gackt, for instance, he is a good example of an attractive otaku since he flaunted his obsession with Gundam (Seed? is it?) and even made a video with scenes from Gundam in it! iunno about the other Japanese celebrities.. for some reason i feel like Hyde likes an anime.. i can't remember.. btw, ghosto, i've only learned all the hiragana.. we're learning basic sentence structure now (is, is not, where are u from? so forth).. but your japanese speaking is welcome.. the more i'm exposed to it, the more i learn, right? ty-the-coon: i HATE it when people hover over me when i'm working.. it's like "what the hell? do you not see that HUGE space where could be standing? stupie people. okay. well those are akio's thoughts for this evening.. if anything interest happens (doubtful but possible) it'll be here.. goodbye, sexies. A presto. Listen. // // He satisfied me Tuesday, September 20, 2005 @ 07:13 p.m. [-- i hate smelly people. well, to tell you the truth absolutely nothing interesting has happened thus far this school year.. i haven't been drunk once, i haven't gone out all night once, i have not done all the brain cell-frying, hangover-inducing festivities i once called my "weekend routine" i attribute this mostly to me not having social skills and to govan's absence.. she's living it up in London.. aw, i miss my blackanese mocha.. sounds like a drink from some fucked up hippy chai house.. oh well.. anyway, so classes have been going aright.. i'm already behind but i'm proud to say that i haven't skipped any so far.. this is a HUGE accomplishment for me since i have not done this for a long period of time in the past three years.. it's not a wonder that my grades suck but the nice thing is that people think i'm smart. well, i am. but i'm also lazy. intuitive, creative and hella good at memorizing shit but DAMN lazy.. i've been getting better tho.. i'd hafta say i've done more studying in the past three weeks than i did all last semester.. getting an A in Japanese so far.. hundreds on quizzes and good results from hw.. too bad i'm not doing as well in Italian..of course, i don't study as much since it's really only the second language i wanted to learn.. and surprisingly, Italian is friggin hard. you'd think cuz it's similar to Spanish (and i took that for god knows how long in junior high and highschool) that it'd be easy to catch on.. iie, soujaarimasen.. that's really not the case. i need to put more time into it.. hopefully i can ace my next quiz. in other news, my parents went to Spain this weekend.. my cousin Marissa and I (her parents are going as well) kinda twiddled our thumbs at the fact that our parents go to Spain right when we get back to school.. oh woe is me. it woulda been awesome if me and Missa went.. we'd party like frat boys at an open-bar strip club.. wait, losing vision in my eye.. no, my contact moved.. just kidding.. okay, back to relevant subject matter, or not, just.. subject matter. the title to this entry is in relation to my previously attended Japanese class.. i have concluded that people need to either stop eating crappy food, rub baby powder on their bodies every 5 minutes or just not going out in public when they exude body odor that can knock out a rhino.. Japanese had to be 50 minutes of aromatic torture where i had mastered, in a matter of minutes, the technique of breathing out of my mouth.. the gross part is that smell is induced by floating particles in the air.. so basically, u've got small bits of putrid body excrement flying into your mouth rather than your nose.. i don't really know which is worse.. btw, farts have the same concept which is basically particles from someone's ass entering your nasal passages.. THIS is why smelly people leave their "stink" on the places they have been to.. i was sitting in the GSU once and while i sat studying hiragana for a quiz, i smelled some serious BO.. and by the time all the people around me left, i could still smell it.. i feared it was, in fact, me who smelled bad.. i decided to switch locations and lo and behold, the smell dissipated.. not to mention when i used to live in a brownstone last year, i used to go into one of the two bathrooms we shared with possibly 30 girls and one girl's BO just STAYED there.. i then decided to either migrate to bathrooms on lower floors or hold it as long as i possibly could.. i don't know if it's genetic or a result of eating habits or what but i'll say this: i feel bad for that person that everyone looks at and thinks "god, they smell".. at the same time, i don't wanna be subjected to it.. so i guess i'm kinda town.. sympathy or loathing? right now in an apartment with a Clean Linen Airwick, i do sympathize.. on the other hand, when i'm stuck in a muggy room with a bunch of people who I suspect may have left a dead carcass in their bookbag, not so much. i'm going to hell in a wooden basket. or a Porsche, either one'll do. i need sleep. and i'm gonna get what i need. leave me love. and if you really love me, come visit me in Boston.. cuz i'm sexy. A presto. Listen. // // He satisfied me Monday, September 19, 2005 @ 03:31 p.m. [-- o t a k u amidst the swirling vortex of mini-skirt wearing, pabst drinking, red sox fans shall emerge the silent but present..... otaku. yes, i have found people to cosplay with me for animeBoston this year.. two girls i met last year at late nite during that dreadful semester Core.. both MIS concentrators (tho i'm MIS/Finance, fran's MIS/Accounting, and Ria's soon to be MIS/Operations Management), i'd seen fran and ria frequently and actually hung out with fran over the summer a couple of times.. SO! both of them are now in my IS365 discussion and we ate dinner at Warren dining hall (wow, it's been a while) today.. LO! fran already knew i was a hardcore otaku but Ria didn't.. she goes "oh? so you're a geek too?" oh, yes.. i am. feature this layout. i am indeed, a huge anime geek. But atleast i'm a good looking one.. generally, she seemed shocked which is the reaction i've gotten from pretty much EVERYONE.. is it odd that i happen to love watching animated characters in a foreign language i barely understand doing fantastical and virtually impossible things better than watching prime time television where they took the worst people in america and stuffed them into one house or watch a bunch of rich white people cheat and lie to each other? no. when i told fran, she was surprised.. this kid david actually said "i never would have thought.." and ria said the same.. i think sancho, gb, mio and rossi kinda just fell into it.. they invited me to a chat to talk about anime.... then we went to target O.o;; i was proud to be the only female present.. so! we have concluded that A) we need to go to yakiniku (korean bbq) B) we should take a road trip to jersey for white castle when the gas prices go down and C) that we'll cosplay and go together to animeBoston next semester.. FUN! i hope gb cosplays.. he's the perfect height and build for a lot of anime guys.. and hopefully sanch can come this year.. maybe mio.. the more the merrier, deshou? i may cosplay Lust again and begin working on my Nico Robin (One Piece) costume.. that one's gonna take A WHILE.. -____-;; then of course, the big-boobed chick from Bleach.. shit, i can never remember her name.. she's hitsugaya's kutaichou.. anyway, yah so those need to come into work.. if i get to cosplay Lust at anime Boston this year, i'll nix her for otakon and just wear plain clothes on Sunday.. which i kinda wanted to do.. depending on how comfortable my other costumes are.. woo! i'm excited.. tho i hafta remember not to splurge too much at animeBoston (like i did last year -___-;;) and save up for otakon.. pwuahahahaha.. otaku rule the world. no, they just hide under a rock with their laptop and dvd collections.. oh, i literally choked on diet coke today while talking to fran and ria about Genshiken the anime i saw about otaku.. she was talking about the part where they go to a con and this guy gets a bug bite or cut on his finger and his hand gets all swollen and turns blue but he still refuses to leave since he needs to buy more manga and get something signed.. the paramedics carry him out on a stretcher and he shouts "buy two copies of everything you buy!" oh, glorious otaku of life.. damnit, i'm rambling about unimportant things..